Friday, August 21, 2009
At 8.30pm i hate something and someone to the max. It is really to the max tat i hate this people and this things.
I shall start from the beginning. There is this kid staying next door came crying over to me just before i started blogging. And it is becos of him i blog again. His story went like this. His parents have no money and is very poor. Hardly can raise both child and piling up the stress on the youngest child almost everyday. They often tells him tat go earn money quickly and pay off the debt they owe. The youngest child tried his best but cant do any shit about it cos he is just a mere 18 years old kid. Well 18 years old u might think it is already very old but he is just a poly year 2 guy with stress coming from school, working place, frens and worse, HOME. This parents of his are hawkers. The none stop pestering of calling both the child to go down to help with the stores is so much of a pain. Imagine sleeping at around 1, 2am and have to wake up around 3.30am to help them. Which child can hold that much of a pain and dreadful experience. And it is becos of them, annoying childhood of my neighbour is horrible.
This neighbour of mine is very helpful and kind at the same time. He never fails to try to change how people things of certain things. With that, he always do his best in making frens and solve problem for many. I respect him to the max as there is no one i have seen like him before. Great leader, Very responsible and have a kind soul. The family treating him like this is so unfair. Sometimes he might even work near during exam period just to pay off telephone bills. Every child have always wanted more pocket money from parents. So do i but imagine my neighbour had to save tat $12 everyday for other uses, excluding meals. Well i am in poly, i know sometimes the project we do need to buy something from outside ourself and we have to pay it. He have to starve himself 2 to 3 days just to save up tat amount for that particular item he wants. Remember the transport expenses and everything on earth is increasing rapidly in price, how do u ever think tat a $12 could keep a child in poly from hunger and at the same time fears none if things he wanted can be bought without much thoughts?
He lives a hardship life tat no one i have ever seen living in it before. Hanging on until he is now age 18 and facing the same money topic everyday from the parents is so unbearable. Sometimes his frens cant bear to see him starve and intend to treat him but he oftenly refuse. If he were to accept it, he will treat his frens in return some other day. And it was becos of his frens that he is still struggling to survive.
If without them, he would have left the world long ago before reaching 18....
Fight on 5:34 AM
Tuesday, April 28, 2009
Today woke up late and went to school in a rush... Was walking pass the shelter in a damn sleepy mode cos slept in bus and i did not reply to Janice when she say hi to me... I did not realise until she sms me... Sorry Janice!!! In face i think i walk pass some last year classmate and i also never acknowledge... Sorry!!!So went to class slack for 1 hour and again pon class!!! MUAHAHAHA!!!! Den sat in atrium and watch X men... Until kenny, Alex and Sandra came to accompany my loneliness... Den of cos the rest came... So had dinner in canteen 2 and was like bored cos my 154 abang got CCA.. So left me and Scandal... Went home together and blog now... I just feel like screaming and yelling now.. I dun know wat is happening to me.. Is it my fault a not??? Although all this thing was started by the asshole passeby it actually seriously affected me.. Still got to do lots of thing in ece and npsu and if this go on, i think i will be drop dead in the next few weeks time.. Clear watever is in btw and start afresh.. For the good of me and for the good of u pls
Fight on 7:33 AM
Monday, April 27, 2009
Same thing went to school today and had breakfast with pee, nesya and jon... Talk and crap of cos and went fo our own classes...Today for me is damn stupid cos my lesson is from 9 to 10 and have 3 hours break till 1pm before the next lesson.. So was like so lifeless and YES i pon classes again!!! Today more best, skip everything including foreign language... Sorry Bartho!!!!While skipping my class, spend time with my ECE freshies like myself is a frehies too!!! Played monopoly with Iris, Zhng Hou and Fiqah.. And of cos i win!!! HAHA... Den terrence and JJ came to meet us... Walk to library and played stacko... And i am the absolute winner!!! No lost haha!!!Btw today, scandal Sandra brought me stuff to heal me up asap!!! She brought Honey water and some lozenges.. I finish up the honey water but the lozenges i intend not to touch it at all... Thank you Sandra!!!
Went to have to ece society breifing and tau pok Haiqel cos his birthday... As usual, Jonathan the fire starer!!! HAHA... Den after tat met Jon, pee, Nessya, Awesome and Shi Yun for dinner!!! And it was in makan place... Eat laugh crap and rushed to Jon's house for MU castle siege... And GUILD BOSS WIN!!!! Though i cant help much!!!HAHADen after tat went home(Finally) take some pills for flu and sat infront of my lap top updating my blog... Damn tiredExplain??? I am here to listen... And DAMN U PASSERBY!!! I KNOW WHO THE FUCK U R!!! U said tat wat u wrote on ur blog is harsh i dun think it is... But i dun have the extra load of time to solve the Davinci Code btw us... It maybe my fault or vice versa... Lets just be frens and let wats gone be gone...
Fight on 8:23 AM
Friday, April 24, 2009
Probably is my fault but nothing is working out at all... I think i have no chance to explain and maybe u might seems no point of me explaining to u right now too... Hang in there without knowing my own objective... No point at all... Things shall be the same for all this time after "u"... Though my effort ain't considerably meaningful to u den i see no point in pushing myself so hard...I understand... I am giving up, so tat u won't have to hold on..Bye
Fight on 12:50 PM
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
Seriously today i tot i am going to die... Woke up and had a serious bad headach, fever and flu... Went to school for IS class and seriously again the class is damn boring... First lesson and took almost 3 hours plus??? But smart enough i gave an excuse and manage to skip class!!! HAHA... Well even escaped from class, i have no other plan as the hairy monster JON went to crash Pee's lecture... So apparently i am stranded alone... I hope to call her but i knew tat she is in class so i just loiter around makan place and found shawn and irfan... They accompanied me like and hour plus and i went to atrium to meet the ECE freshies... On the way also met my NPSU FOC freshies... Well though i see their lesson so fun and ended so early, i really miss my year 1 days!!!So waited for Jon, Pee and Black Man and went to take 5... (Sorry!)After tat went to Convention Centre to see my ECE Freshies doing the Dance 4 Fund Rehersals... And seriously i was hoping tat they will dance really well as i lead them for their dance practice yesterday and the stress level was so high cos if they did not do well, i will have no face to face Xing Jun as he trusted them to me... But the stress level went away after seeing them dance... Though ECE's performance is like shorter den any other school but out of 11 schools we should appear like top 4??They were so hardworking and perservere yesterday's training and heard fom them they said yesterday's training is the toughest and also the most fun practice... I am seriously damn happy to hear tat... Knowing tat wat i done is appreciated is really enough.. Although did some counting really wrong but with the help of Kenny, everything works really well..So during their rehersal, i got away and go for the NPSU Hop Night briefing and again i am going to be on the same duty as NP 45th... The briefing was really short and i felt damn sorry for Val... Cos most of the helpers do not wan to help out Val's section and some even said if they change the IC they wil go help... I was like thinking should i take the first step and support Val?? But Jon told me not to.. Cos it will be boring... After millions of persuasion, i gave in to Jon...After the briefing i went back to CC and support my ECE freshies again!! Right on time they are about to start dancing... So i quickly sat down and cheer them on... And again i felt relief After their performance... So later a while, Jon ask some of the Osiris Gl's to go have dinner including EDWARD!!! So went to Al Ameen and have food again!!! Chatted and took 5 again (Sorry!)... While taking 5, Jon ask me why i look so stress...? I told him tat me ECE thingy, EXCO thingy and also the hopnight thingy all clash and was having a hard time to balance 4 things together... He gave me some words of advice and join the rest again... So after the meal all went seperate way and i went back to CC to Root for my Freshies again!!! Went i reached, Sandra seems damn shack!! I tot its becos of the dance and she was tired so i continue to joke with her but after realise she quarreled with her Fav Man!! After tat she seems really down and i told kenny to bring her out for some fresh air... She came back normal and i tried my best to make her smile again by using all kinds of lame shit jokes!!! An indeed she smiled again!!! So went with them to KAP mac and drank a large cup of coke... Crap there for quite long and leave around like 10.10pm?? So took bus with Wen Jie, Jun Jie, Ah Boy and Sandra... On the bus we joke around with everything and entertain them with watever thing i have... And seriously i believe the 3 freshies enjoy wat we are saying... So reached home around like 11.45pm and was very tired!!! Updated my blog every since 17 march was the last!!!I just felt stress up wit every single thing right now...I have no mood to study no mood to play around as usual...Is it becos of my illness or is it the stress from other thing??I am Seriously not sure but Zi Kun make a very good point to me...I do believe he is right but i just can take my hands off right now right???? Tat is like so irresponsible... But he said tat is of cos for my good but i ain't giving up... I am trying my best to juggle things around and i am really sorry if i have not did my part... I knew i dissapoint u a few times.. Although u seems pretty fine but i know u r not... And i feel very guilty everytime i think about it...shall end here tonight!!!PERSERVERANCE
Fight on 8:49 AM
Saturday, March 14, 2009
Today started out with a puff with jon under the bridge den when to CC to do our duty... Well i tot tat it will be like the first day but it was way different...When we carried all our things to CC, there is alreay ppl sitting down to wait for us to open our booth... I was seriously surprise becos first time see ppl kiasu for camps and worst still their parents are with them too... Really unbelievable...Den samethings as usual, chiong like siao until damn hungry... Ask Amanda Jac to buy Chicken rice for me but out of stock liao.. LOLZ!!! So bo bian got to ask Qiu Ling to let me go buy myself... And of cos last thing i tot of was subway... Ate a subway meltz 6 inch and was like still really empty... and of cos ate another 2 siew mai and a carrot cake... After tat, i was seriously damn full..Den of cos continued the same old routine again... After a while, Qiu Ling called all Osiris to gather and do a Heart to Heart talk... But seriously it turn out to be a Trash Talk session.... Cos everything we said for this session of talk is the usual same before den... And Jacob was seriously pissed and i really can feel tat he is really going to blow anytime... Sort of joke a bit cos i do not want the situation to tense up.. And maybe the way Jacob ask Qiu Ling a few question did upset her abit but i hope she dun mind it..So after tat Quite a few ppl went away early and i was like OKAY~~~ So continued my duty as an usher for the second half... Did some mass dance and learn some shuffle from suran... Was quite difficult actually but if i really wan to learn it i can really do it men!!! HAHALastly i went home early cos was seriously pissed and stress out by the shirt design and printing... DAMN SIANZ!!! Reached home bathe and lied down on bed to reflect more on wat have i done today... And i think my conscience is quite clear today.. HAHA...Btw i did some forging of signatures for some freshies.. Felt really bad right now!! But should be ok i guess?Shall end here today!!!PLAN BF
Fight on 8:10 AM
Friday, March 13, 2009
Well seriously everything right now in my mind was like so ARGH!!! Maybe cos of a game or maybe other things tat i can hardly get it off my brain....Let me rewind a bit.. Few days ago was my birthday and also the start of trial camp... My group Osiris bought me a mini cake and celebrated my birthday... Sort of surprising as this kin of things seldom occurs on me... And btw today is GEENA's birthday!!!HAPPY BIRTHDAY GEENA!!!So first day of camp was really boring at first cos need to think of our group's power cheer and the last day skit to present to others... Well talking about my group, i met some new ppl and also at the same time really nocturnal ppl!!! Crazy and new face is Zi Kun!! He plays bball like i do but i dun think i am so siao as him... He is very nocuturnal type of person... He is usually extremely high and crazy in the night!!! In the day, he is like a bird without his wings... Other new ppl tat i work with the first time are Jamie, Sharon, Zi Kun, Jing Wen, Jacob, Geena and Shi Yun. The rest tat i had worked with b4 are Jon, Jerome, Roderick and Chris... All of them have their really strong point and also at the sametime weak points... But i believe we can be a very strong group if we work tgt... Well some ppl tat is in the trial camp might not agree tat we are a strong team. I myself at first too.. Only after Gilbert AKA WU GUI, enlighten me, Zi Kun, Jon and Jacob.. This is briefly wat he says... HE told us tat he and the rest of the camp com and crews tot tat Osiris was the best group on the first day as we battle out our voices using really great cheers... But we somehow simmered down really lot on the second day cos it seems like we are really outcasted by the rest of the 3 teams... Well at first i tot tat they dislike us in this or tat way but Gilbert said tat the 3 teams gathered up tgt to battle us becos they can't beat us by standing alone... Hearing tat i really self reflected and seriously i think tat it is really true... On the first day of the cheering, We beat the rest till they can hardly breathe... And at tat moment we are so proud of ourself.. And becos of the peer pressure from the other 3 groups, we somehow gave up fighting cos our mindset was like WE LOST!! So i am going to tell myself tat i am going to wack any group i see in FOC 09/10..Sort of finish talking about the 3 on 1 case... I shall talk more about my feelings in the camp... MASS DANCE PARTNER:Well let me ask u guys something.. If u were to get a damn nice looking girl as ur dance partner and suddenly a decision is made to change ur partner to a guy will u be pissed??? Well at first i am!!! Really I AM!!! And i seriously dunno is it the reason Val told me at first tat roderick pair have difficulty in the mass dance... But still i changed we some unhappiness.. And of cos i believed Val tat difficulty to catch up on the mass dance for rod's pair is true... So on the following hours, i really felt something a miss.. Somehow the gals are avoiding me... And at den, i sort of concluded why Val make tat change... I found a even more define answer during tat night... We wrote our dislikes and likes of a person on a paper and have a small chat about it.. My good points i shall not brag about it but my bad points bothered me for tat whole hour... The bad points stated, TOUCHY WITH GIRLS; NEGLECT OPINIONS OF OTHERS;.. at first i agree with the neglecting of others but the really bothering wan is the touchy thingy... Well of cos i knew who wrote it but b4 we get to read our paper, we promise no hard feelings... Think about tat i knew tat i was really wrong and of cos i apologize to the 4 gals as a whole.. Well the apologize did not really work untl the last night where Val settled things for me... He asked me if i know the reason why he changed my Dance Partner.I replied yes confidently... So he told me to elaborate more.. I speak out my heart felt words and i think on tat day the gals somehow forgive me a little??? I hope??? So tat problem ended by hugging each others... Hugging as in the whole group together... Through tat, i really learn the importance of the distance of a women and a guy... And i will keep it in mind all the times from now on.... Gals to point out my mistakes in future..DOG AND BONE SITUATION:I think on the second day if i am not wron we played D&B as a whole gl group and i dunno wat happen to me i played freakingly hiong and pushed farhan on his ass and if i am not wrong he landed flat...
So the thing got really complicated as Qaiser was in it too!! The long story of all the situation i shall not say... But the one thing i got to know through this situation is, i really have great frens around me.. I shall say it 1 by 1...Number 1: JONI know sometime the way he speak is really rough and not tactful of the usage of words... He told me tat if anything happen to me he will get ppl down to wack the trouble makers... Of cos i heard tat i felt really relieve but afterall it was my fault and if i were to get wack i still think i deserve it.. But his brotherhood spirit, i am really greatful...Number 2: Zi KunHe tried to cheer me on during my down turn as everyone is like giving me the fuck off expression... He keeps on stick with me and pat my back and always tell me everything is going to be alright... Really thanks you for tat time being as a really good fren...Number 3: SharonIf i am not wrong she is Farhan's gf and this stun thing happen and she was like stuck in btw... I am really sorry tat i put her on such a hard position but still when i talk to her outside the sports hall, she did not turn away and run and instead she talk to me and just tell me to give Farhan sometime... Well when i was talking to her she cried cos Jon said something really unpleasent infront of her... But she did not bear any grudges and still working well with me right now... Even when my family matters where announced she still console me and of cos the rest did too.. Thanks...And of cos the rest of my groups and other groups too.. They tried to cheer me up too... Example, Josiah, Amanda Jack, Bo Hao, Ryan, Roderick and many many more... Really grateful to u ppl...So on break camp day, the worst news for me had be known and still the usual ppl cheered me up... At the same time we also got to know our sub groupO1: Jamie, Chris and RoderickO2: Shi Yun, Jing Wen and JeromeO3: Me, Geena and JonO4, Zi kun, Jacob and SharonWell i guess it will be hard to work with Geena at first but i am going to do everything to regain tat broken trust...Den now is the promoting and taking in NPSU FOC 09/10 freshies.. Started on wednesday and was really fun...I will not forget the name Grace Wu and Andrea Seet!!!Shall end here today... Really long winded post...
Fight on 8:23 AM
